New Chapter
Feb, 28th 2009
Me, in My 14 Weeks Pregnancy
It’s been awhile… I hide myself from net and friends. I was too afraid, too nervous, too sad, too happy, too exciting, all those feelings mixed up come and go, driving me crazy, and I end up doing nothing in my room but watching thousands of movies for the past 10 weeks.
I had 3 miscarriages before, and that has made me and my husband really down. So, I have some treatments from my doctor and of course eat so many pills as well. I used to get pregnant very easy, but after those treatments, seems like it is so hard to get me pregnant again. Was over than a year I’ve been waiting, until last Christmas Dec 08 I found out that I’m pregnant. I was so happy, and I said to myself ‘this is the best Christmas gift ever’ well, or I should say the second best, the first best was when I get engage with Adi (my husband) in Dec 04. Anyway, but then in the same time I was afraid and nervous, what if I will miscarriage, what if I lose this baby again, what if… All I can do really was praying all the times, and I knew that God will give us the best (even sometime I think it’s not good for me or make me sad) but I don’t know what good for me, only God knows, so I just let myself lying in His arms and surrender.
After knowing that I’m pregnant, I ask for 3 months leave from the office. The office management understands that I had previously very weak pregnancies so they allow me to get enough rest for this pregnancy. They are so kind even they don’t cut my salary, still getting my full payment every month J
I think I have all morning sickness symptoms during my 12 weeks pregnancy, unlike my 3 previous pregnancies, I had them all: Nausea, vomiting, Fatigue, indigestion, insomnia, constipation, oh… you name it! It was no fun at all, but I tried to always enjoy every minute of it, I love this baby, I wanted so badly so yes, of course I would sacrifice for it. No complaint, although there’s a time when I asked my hubby, maybe two or three times if he could switch in my position (mean: if he can have the early pregnancy sickness instead of me) then he would go ”don’t say that honey” and hug me. Well, lucky me, my hubby is not the type of husband who controlling so much about what should I do, what should I eat, or don’t do this, don’t do that…you know, those kind of things that you already know and being told over and over again, sometimes become irritating, even if it is coming from somebody you love. Instead, he would bring me home food that the baby wants (mean: I really want) or take me to my favorite restaurant just so I’m willing to eat. Massage my head or my legs in the evening when I feel all my body is aching. Even he’s doing it while he watching sport channel, so when he’s getting exciting with the game he would stop the massaging, I still call him a very supportive husband J
I’m in 14 weeks now and I feel a lot better. Yesterday, I and my hubby went to the doctor for check up. With the USG monitor we can see our baby. The doctor explained to us, “this is the head, this is the body, back bone, open leg … I felt amaze, there’s a baby inside of me! It really is!
Now, I’m ready to see the world again. No more hiding. In 2 weeks I will be back to the office, and I’m so exciting about it. This is like a new life for me, new experience at least. Thank you Lord.
Uncategorized | Comment (0)favorite time of the year
Semarang, Sept, 29th 2008. 4 PM we leave for Yogyakarta, hooray!! Yogyakarta is our favorite place to chill out ever since 7 years ago. So Exciting! I feel sorry for AP (my hubby) though, as he has to work the whole day and yet has to drive another 3 hours, but he won’t let me drive, never! So, what I do was just keep talking to him, make sure he’s awake, fed him with some snacks and POCARI sweat, his favorite…
We stay in the same hotel we stay last year. It’s like another home for us.
MALIOBORO is first place we visit in the next day. Strolling thru the traditional market, charming park along in Malioboro road, it was perfect in a beautiful sunny day. I hold my self to not buy too many things (This is the hard part, boy… so many beautiful things they offer in Jogja and with a good price too!) The sun getting too hot for us, then we continue to browse into Malioboro mall having lunch and another window shopping 
I’m so happy we can get the taste of ‘Hot supper’ in the evening. We thought the restaurant would be closed, since it was Ramadhan eve. A small Sumatranese restaurant we often go to long time ago before we got married, still taste the same yummy …they renovate the building, a bit bigger than it was and much neater.
2nd day we visit our friend Aan & Aci, it was nice got to play a little bit with their little boys, also we had special dish for supper lontong, opor ayam, rendang, sambal goring, hmm.. typical Ramadhan meal. We leave their house early as their kids need to go to bed, but then later in the evening Aan with Gundul (another friend of AP, which also brother in law of Aan) came to our hotel and we continue to catch up until midnight.
3rd day we just being lazy at the hotel, walking around a ‘lil bit, in the afternoon we go to Ambarukmo Plaza and Galeria mall, then about 4 PM we are driving back to Semarang. I wish I can stay longer in Jogja but AP just got 2 days off at the exact Ramadhan holiday, sad..
One week I stay at home, having a ‘lil taste of being housewife: do some cleaning around the house, watching movies, sometimes if AP not so busy than we can have lunch together, otherwise I would just wait till he come home in the evening. It’s nice I enjoy it very much. I guess I don’t mind if it happens only 2 weeks or so per years, ha… ha … and finally, AP got his one week leave, yippee! so we preparing another trip to Bandungan for 3 days, actually this is my company Outbound program, lucky me that my company ask AP to cover the event as he is a photographer, so we can have free vacation in Bandungan, Work and Leisure 
That’s it. We have to go back to work now, and we are looking forward for Christmas soon!
Cheers.
Uncategorized | Comment (1)a letter to Adi Prianggoro
It’s been 7 years, WOW!
You are still my best friend ever, fun to be with, lil bit crazy but I always miss you when you are not around. Even I become crazy if you are away more than 24 hours (it’s true!)
I’m so glad that you asked me to stay that day and that you insisted that I should walk with you; Oh, I’m so glad you did, otherwise I will miss this amazing 7 years! And yet I’m Looking forward to another thousand years ahead with you …
For all the love you’re giving me, for every care, for every touch, tender kisses, warm hugs, little kisses thru the night when you awake (my favorite), laughing out of your silly joke, even for every tears that nourish me to grow, the list go on… I thank you for all those things, I would’ve been fade and die without them.
Since 3 years ago you become a husband (my husband, thanks God) its ok, you are still my best friend J and when you said ‘I love you ‘till death do us part’ I couldn’t more agree with that, as for how much I love you? The words wouldn’t enough to express, but I’m sure you can feel it right thru your bone J
I love you husband, 7 years ago and forever …
XOXO
Your wife
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